So here I sit on a Tuesday afternoon at around 3 o clock just been for a walk around the blcock n the hope that it will wake me up but no alas i am still feeling bla. it is absolutely ridiculsous how i just thrive off pressure and don't seem to b e ble to function at my greatest capactiy unless i'm like an hour awway from my deadline. and then after days like that i have an enormous headached - like my brain is going to explode. but technically, if i just spread my work load around over a anumber of days i would nnot have to stress and i would not get into a panic at all. bu then when all is calm thins like this morning happens when work colleague J sends an email about a new advertisement. hich is not on the list and which is not part of the pagination. i was so angry i wanted to explode - i couldn't even talk to him in fact. but then i did balst him and felt better and drank some hot chocolate. but needless to say it is as if he and others do not respect my authority which makes me really angry and i want to rssedn a rude email to all the sales reps about it because iin my world a deadlines is a deadline and needs to be adhered to for the smooth opeation of an enterprise. anyway ya that's got my headache flaring up aain so i'm going to stop thinking about that. so i had a nice walk around the block just now and got to thinking how easy it is to just get used to the way things are...and compromise and all such things and being so busy we just enver seem to gte a weekend to ourselves. i would really love to go away and really get back to some excitement and lovingness - not to say that isn't still there but just that it sometimes takes a weekend out of the normal surroundings to totally enjoy it. so i hope that we find a weekend to get away soon (although arelady t looks like maybe the end of march only) sto enjoy. camping at pilansburg really was awesome last year and i want thta magic again coz i d quite love the curly.
Speed typing without looking at what I was doing on the screen...so those mistakes are there for a reason
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